Allister

I’m in love with hating mysel

I love you hating me too…I deserve it thank you for being the first one to understand that

if they’ve broken you in so many ways without realizing at what point do you stop piecing yourself back together

honestly, im tired i miss you i feel like you don’t care two shits abt me anymore and im just another little fucking burden

is what i tried to say

what i did say was tho,

no i’m ok just tired :)

I sit there and wonder night after night about you

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Do you still love me?

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One red, two

three lines, ten

ten red lines and forever more

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I sit here, a tear dances along my cheek

what if i’m making it up

that’s cringe

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Each time i stare at myself in the mirror

i imagine a pier

and as i hear

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I promise i did

I worked so hard

practice after practice

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Some night I like to lay on the hard cold floor, my skin pressed against it.

I Stare up at the celling. I don't cry, imagine, think, smile.

I just stare.

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