It's at 2 am on a school night
When goodbye hits me hardest
And it's hard to catch my breath
Between the tears streaming down my cheeks
And it's hard to stay silent
As the screams rip out of my throat
And chills run down my spine
And his name escapes my lips
Over and over again
And "why me" rolls off my tongue
In pain and stifled silence
And I don't know how to calm myself
And I just want my brain to hush
I want my thoughts to not be so loud
And so painful, like stabs into my heart
And my hands grasp blankets
While I bury my face in pillow
And his name escapes my lips again
And suddenly he answers
He responds to his child crying out
He extinguishes the pain burning my chest
And dries the tears pooling on my face and pillow
He calms the cries boiling in my throat
And he drags heavy eyelids shut
So that I may get some sleep
Because it's 2 am on a school night
And goodbye is hitting me hard
And I can't do it alone
So I cry out his name
The name of the lord
And he brings me peace
Even just for a night
Because it's worst at night
When the world is silent
But my feelings are loud
And even if I'm sad in the morning
I had peace for a night
And for that I am grateful
Because at 2 am on a school night, he is still listening
