One day I'll hate myself enough
To actually live my life
Where all my habits are self destructive
And mutually beneficial to my peers
A flaming ball, a star struck blue meteor
Hurtling itself towards earth with all the hate
Beauty and power it can muster
The epitome of freedom
Driving 2 miles over the speed limit
Treating the poor like it's a kingdom
And I'm their peasant
I'll shower them with all the paper and currency
My dog, couch and clothes too
Because unlike me, they deserve to dream
I hope to be lower than the filth that litters the streets
A foundation for the hopeless and helpless
A comparison to realize there's such a thing as progress
I want to dance in rain gutters
Because that's where I belong
Drinking and dropping out of school
Perfecting spontaneous acts of Fool's gold
Traveling to unknown cities to sleep
On park bench diaries,
To write my own
One day I'll hate myself so much
That I'll love everybody and they'll love everybody
Except me because I'll be
The root of all their problems
And the foundation for all their solutions
Because
No one should love a man with such envy
With such self-loathing and pity;
A man who wants to better everything
Except himself
