I use to read every night before I slept when I was a kid
There was one book that started it all
I forgot about it
I found it tonight
I opened it up and
Then I cried
My flooding memories of childhood fell down my face
My sopping sounds gave noise to my now empty room
I don't even know what I've lost since then
I want to say freedom
But that's not complete
It's just a feeling, youthful
I've lost life and I can feel it
Tonight was the night I realised my half life
Tonight was the night I realised there are things that will never be fixed by anything
Tonight was the night I truly feel fucked up and helpless
Life is just stale and will always be from now on
I partly died tonight
May 22, 2015
