I find myself wanting
To have an untainted outside
I know perfection is an illusion
But I feel if the exterior looks
Flawless
Elegantly effortlessly pretty
Maybe I won't fret over
My mind doing jumping jacks
All the time and my heart
Sinking and then floating
Back and up
Again and again
Like I'll look in the mirror
Recognize myself and
Feel free to keep making
These decisions that are forcing me
To keep hacking away at this path
I feel I must make
Even if I feel lonely and reluctant
What choice do I have
But to keep making mistakes
And praying, one day
I'll be happy with what I've created
-Adrianna Denay
