Stuck in the mist
Sometimes my mind wonders
With a heart that remains golden as a rare treasure
Asking god to guide me
Because the past has arisen
I’m heavy in prayer for guidance
Never did I see myself perfect
But knew I needed change
So not only did I talk it I also walked in it
Had some help along the way
Some got dull some got strong some I out grew
Not cause I think I’m better but so I can become a better me
I drift away from reality time after time
But I don’t forget who I am and what I’m gonna accomplished
Darkness I fight days and night hit I struggle to feel happy
Distance from life I escape in silence into music
Opening up shut and open
Really feels scary venting so instead I moved back into the word
Bottled emotions can’t really feel secure for the backlash it will cost
A strong black woman I will always stand to conjure
For the strength I pray everyday
I know I’m destined for nothing but greatness in the eyes of myself
With the release of overcoming old and new demons
Is the most greatest but a rocky road I accompany
New beginnings I’m excited to see that’s more of a blessing to me than anything
Fear sometimes try to take a peak
But I refuse for it to have the best over me
That’s why closure for me is a most
I’m closing all old doors leaving old keys behind me
To open new doors that seek me with new keys to my life
Not for nobody but me
Peace of mind is important for me
Than toxic
Learning to detoxify myself from toxic energy is something I definitely stand on
A deep daily reminder of what misery loves company is
With the company it strikes to keep
So I have to think about that energy I keep around me
Sometimes people leave bad energy around you
Cause they can’t move how you move
Or shine like you shine
Without you even knowing
And it be the I love you ones
But what they don’t know you went thru hell mud, dirt weary days , sleepless nights , stressing, headache, etc
Just to keep that belief afloat
Cause of faith you carry with a healthy strength and the man up above
Here I say nothing will never come between that
But the outcome of blessings and happiness
