Similar secret skeletons never seen hidden shoved so dark deep down that it can be so in common when been shared
That the truth can be in plain sight
But so many lies turnt it into blindness
Triggered by your own shadows
And distance from a touch or hug
Results quick reflexes to a little touch
Never had the imagined of experiencing the feeling That shaking a frenemy hand can be seen so raw in reality
Now I learned the meaning of keep your friends closer
But your enemies closer
That’s when them trust issues start to proceed into affect
Like you can’t trust a soul
It’s the feeling just like you keep turning a stemming Hot kettle on the stove to just set just to let it go Straight back to cold just to watch and repeat
The same thing over and over again to suffer
Because it makes you feel in control
Never did I fall in love with you but loved
Not once felt timid to speak when I love
You wanted it so bad
Every time I just shutdown and decline it
Once your hands kept breaking that trust
Made the decision and seen
To who I really needed to been giving my love and energy to
That it only took just once
And never can it be repaired
The words I know I’ve taken you for granted fall from your lips
Shook so many levels of walking with silent anger in me
To a different type hurt of gettin played
Never did I leave but force away
Sad to say the last feeling I had left remaining was caring
In my heart I rather forgive you than go back to a bitter person wasn’t even worth it
Observing you show it instead
Still solid rocking right by your side
Switching my vision up to also
Watching you as a mother and her son child/sibling slip away in front of their eyes
Rise to dawn night and day 24/7 without a day off by Her side Beautiful never ending strength and faith
That it deeply feed my soul with knowledge
And the encouragement of determination never giving up but growing a stronger bond together as family suppose to do no matter the circumstances
Because watching her time to fly up
To gain her wings
Shit broke my heart to see your heart shattered into broken pieces that it driven your happiness of smiles straight into pain
Seeing y’all crying for her to not leave y’all
To crying her name everyday in silence
And out loud to just come back to you
Body shaking in shock heart racing afraid
Like a little kid is scared of the dark
Never did I had in mind to leave
But stand strong for y’all
Never believed in leaving a person
Especially if I already knew how it felt to be on the other side
Seeing y’all so broken and hurt like that
In that moment changed my whole life just in the blink of an eye about life
