have I lost myself?
I got lost on the way
I’m forgiving and kind
Yet I’m easily betrayed
I think I care to much
Sometimes not at all
If I’m being everybody’s pillow
Whose gonna catch ME when I fall?
Whose gonna be by my side and ask if I’m okay?
Or if everything’s alright? Or hey how is YOUR day?
Whose gonna hold me tight when my life is a mess...
I cry daily in my bathroom
I wouldn’t necessarily call myself depressed
i wouldn’t say I want my life to end
I’m so grateful for a new day
For my family and friends.
I appreciate them in every way.
I’m grateful for all I have
Thankful I get to live
But why do I feel like I don’t deserve it
Why am I so hard on myself for the things I did
I want to be happy
On the outside it’s what I show
On the inside it’s really dark
I’m lost and have no place to go
I’m afraid and I’m alone
I’m battling my head and heart
The things that don’t bother normal people is what’s tearing me apart
The thing is that I feel myself falling apart a little at a time
I can’t even socialize properly
But they all think it’s in my mind
They think I can just snap my fingers and it would all just go away
I’m trying really hard
But the pain is here to stay