Hopeless Consideration

What has happened to my life? I can’t seem to get it together. I keep trying to get back right Storm’s are getting harder to weather. Working an honest living At over 40 hours a week Still never seem to be enough.. I still can’t make-ends-meet. All I want to do is make Mom and Dad proud But I just feel stuck Wondering how... Can I better myself but I’m trying to figure out What the next step is And I’m feeling hopeless... Since I’m hopeless I start to think What will happen if I break? And go back to my old ways.. Running drugs, running guns, cleaning scenes, and stealing cars... I used to make money by the weight... And though I hated my life day by day I was always straight. So now I’m considering again Being a cynical criminal all over again Until my end.