It always starts like this
Cheery laughters, all smiles
Filtered stories that could go on miles
And eager white lies
It always ends like this
“Thank you”
Lots and lots of apologies
And I hope you’re happy
It was like that the day you left
Unfortunately, none of it made sense
I’ve forgotten how to speak
Lost the ability to comprehend
I wanted to know why
But I didn’t have the heart to ask you
Because I already knew why you lied
Everything was a lie and it’s okay
We were both young
You were too excited
I was too naive
None of us was to blame
We just wanted something beautiful
And indeed it was
But it was too beautiful
Too beautiful to be real
And now, my heart aches from all the unanswered questions
From all the what ifs
From all the what could’ve been
My heart aches a little bit more everyday
Because I still want to know why you did it
I still want to know how you were able to to tell me you love me and lie
I still want to know what I did to deserve this
And I still want to know if you’d do it all over again
Because babe, I’d do it all over again
Meet you and say goodbye to you
I’d feel everything once more
If it means having to experience you again
-SNM
