I Am Lost

I felt down for such a long time, A long time of sadness, and disparity, Happiness, and joy do not exist in my world, I had COVID-19, My running not the same anymore, I can not be tamed, I am the beast, of the East, I live life in the twilight zone of my own imagination, The dark knife symbolizes purity of darkness, and eternal pain of misery, I am a complexed intellectual, I Am Lost,