Where did the sun go? Where is that feeling of warmth that used to spread through me? When did it get this cold, when I used to be so free? I’m locked up wherever I go now. This cloud is always hanging over my head. I’m lost somewhere and I won’t be found- I can’t help but feel like I’m already dead.
I still remember how it felt. To feel the sun on the outside... and the inside. When at the end of the day, all troubles would melt. Eventually the magic faded, leaving me to find my own way.
But I’m lost.
And I’m tired.
And I want nothing to do with this world.
Every day feels like a burden.
And every night feels like a storm.
Resist, resist. Don’t give into the darkness. Every inch is aching, and every smile fading. Through the inside I’m shaking from the pain because I’m breaking! Every inch is freezing, and inside out, I’m bleeding.
Resist! RESIST! Don’t you dare give into the darkness!
All I feel is this cold and empty space, nothing there to keep me warm. I tell myself I’m strong- that this pain won’t last forever. But I never believe it. I guess happy endings only have a home in fairytales. I wish those happy endings would take me with them. But distant times, I’ve already tried, and this ship just doesn’t sail. The crew is quitting before the journey is even done. I’m only getting farther into the dark. And I’ve been nothing... since I said goodbye to the sun.
