yeah, i wish i can numb this pain. i thought by now i won't complain. i got the cash with half the fame. i lost half my heart and kept the veins. we had my spark and lost the flame. i tried to talk, had none to say. i want the love you never gave. was hurting me your only aim. you shot my heart, i bled out hate. because though you left, the trauma stayed. i wish the past, would go away. but i guess gotta live with it. times changed, i don't feel different. despite the hurdles in my life i kept my vision alive. i had no one on my side, yet i still did it. i’m still missing thе old me, i’m talking pre-deprеssion. where i felt alive and i had a connection. now i’m more dead inside than ever because i lost my direction. i don't put my wall down for my own protection. and i'm tired of people using me. people lie, what do you believe? i know people see the truth in me and i know one day you will see that being true was a tool for me. i be sticking to myself. i don't need nobody else. just relief from this trauma that keeps on ruining me. because lately i’m losing sleep and nobody's getting through to me it’s because i want my mind at ease. feels like i need to breath. i think i’m in too deep, now... i'm still here and still driven.
