sometimes i forget completely

Sometime i forget completely what companionship is. Unconscious and insane, I spill sad energy everywhere. My story get told in various ways. A romance, a dirty joke, a war, a vacancy. Divide up my forgetfulness to any number, it will go around. These dark suggestions that i follow, are thay part of some plan? Friends, be careful. Dont come near me out of curiosity, or sympathy.