you know, i’m my biggest critic
or maybe that you
i don’t know specifics
but i know that i’d do
anything that you asked me to
i’m not really my own person
i’m almost fully yours
well i’m not really sure
because i don’t recognize me
i’m just who you want me to be
and i did that willingly
but i’m tired
and i haven’t felt inspired
i’m so many weeks
and the worst part is that it not because of me
i hate that you have an effect on anything
that i do
that i think
what i knew
when i blink
i hate that you control everything
that should be mine
and i lied
so many times
every time i said i was fine
but i tried
and got stuck
again…
and i don’t even want to be my friend
and it’s fairly clear that you won’t
and i’ll end up alone
which i’m secretly terrified of,
but you can’t fight the inevitable
right?
