Lately I’ve been getting yelled at, didn’t know why.
I been too busy tryna figure out these soul ties.
Every other day I feel something when my soul cries
I been dodging some responsibilities in my own life
Now I’m nervous
And you heard it first,
I been fearing of things instead of looking for hope
Instead of embracing love, I started worrying about hate
But the worst thing of all is that I tend to procrastinate, after I say that I’ll do things
When it comes to timing it’s not about the mood swings
More about the You things
Maybe I been too complacent, but I really been trying to build my life
Either worrying of wrong and right, or just worrying for the night
My mom can see my potential, said she’s pushing me so much because I’m getting lazy.
And I’m a man, and see her working to keep the house afloat and it don’t aggravate me?
Mom I wanna be amazing. I wanna be just what I was meant to be but I been impatient.
And I been so caught up on things that maybe I shouldn’t be entertaining.
And no I don’t want you to do it all by yourself. I feel like I was meant to help. But to be honest, I just been trying to fix my health.
Didn’t see it costing me so much to just try and fix myself.
But maybe the point of it is in the way that I live, maybe this part of me I’m trying to change is the piece of me that I’m actually meant to give to other people. And go closer to my purpose.
No I don’t feel worthless, maybe a bit ashamed for some of the things I did in my past that can’t be changed.
Wondering if I’ll fail in this simulation, life is akin to a dream but my life is like unlocking the imagination and let it flow like a stream. Before I die I want people to know I made it, no not just money and things but a piece of love that’s so deep and profound it makes you want to discover the king. A love so real, that it feels outta this world, not apart of any government scheme or plot to stir controversy over secular things.
A real love that makes you realize and acknowledge just what love really is.
If anything I want you to be inspired by the way that I live
