Hello
I wish someone could hear this
But I can’t find one right now
I’m sitting
But again I’m sinking
I don’t know how it happens
But I’m really suffocating
I need help...
I have lived my entire life
Refusing that I need help
Because I was scared that because of my vulnerability
People would treat me like a liability
Undermining my capability
As if I have inability
I didn’t want to admit that I’m weak at some point
That I need help at some point
But at this point,
I’m tired
I’m scared
I’m not telling you this now
Because I no longer know how
How to act strong any how
But it’s because I choose to tell you
I choose to take a risk instead of dying inside
I don’t expect you to get this
I don’t expect you to show me the difference
But I choose to surpass my fear
I want to revive the gear
Even if it might take more than a year
I want someone to hear
To hear my fear
Even if I’m scared.
