I am using my will and courage to fight it but its not strong enough.
I feel defeated
Hollower
I am not a hallow person, i am not who i am right now.
I am in the processes of seeing what i am, what i am doing.
I am not proud of it. who i am?
becoming
i am putting myself in uncomfortable situations inside my head to overcome the easy way out.
( stop running away)
i dont want to live in riddle of not coming to reality.
I am really not in a good place, i choose to pretend.
I’ve became so comfortable with pretending.
I cant tell who i am and i am shameful.
Im 20 and i dont want to be 26 dealing with the same cycle.
I built for myself.
I dont have a chose anymore,
its either i live in a wasted life or a truer one.
i am not several emotions i am all of them and i cant chose one, i see thats not something you do.
I am motionless to the account because i am not comanding my action, i can but im stuck in a motionless loop.
I found out things inside my head and thought about many things i get it but im also grasping to keep the handle.
I seem to ver off.
I am sorry
I dont open up
I am letting that
possessive nature I have consume me and i
am not that
consumption im not a
combustion im miscues im
od-ordinary .
