My hurt was DEEP
Deeply disturbing
There were so many layers involved
Unknown discovery’s
I’m finding less & less
Those MEMORIES that disturb my existence
My hurt was affecting me
ALL OF ME
I didn’t even know
I was NOT in control
I couldn’t remain calm
My hurt was shame
SILENT it stayed
Hiding in the background
LURKING
It remained in control
Negativity affecting myself & my family
All those I LOVED & I hurt
MY GREATEST REGRETS
My hurt was running the show
I just refused to accept it
I was SCARED to lose it all
A fight constantly RAGES inside me
Even today it’s silent
But DEADLY
My hurt is me
It will always REMAIN
It no longer has control
Today I know tho
THE TRUTH
I don’t feel CrAzY anymore
It happened to me
It is not me
I wouldn’t change a thing
I LOVE who I am
Who I am NOW
Who I’m meant to become
I ACCEPT WHO I WAS
I forgive others and myself
My hurt was all I knew
I clung to it tightly
AFRAID of who I’d be without it
It hurt to let it go
To no longer use it as a crutch
To understand why
To have no answers to questions I will carry FOREVER
My Hurt was DEEP
I’ve learned to let go
To live in HARMONY
To Live with it
Not against it
Angella Y. Booth
