when he is right
it will feel like talking
to someone
who looks at you
with complete comprehension
he will know…
when i laugh hysterically
it is because i want to cry
when i speak quickly
i am anxious or nervous or both
he will smile with knowledge
he will know why i stutter
because i am embarrassed
why i speak nonsense
just to keep him with me
how i overshare
because i am chronically lonely
and how inside i am so angry
so hurt for so may buried reasons
and the smiles i give that bloom for him now
are from hard cultivation and work
i worked so hard
just to get this place
where I am looked at with understanding
and love
so …
much …
tenderness and love
how my heart has patiently waited
for you to find me
