Dear darling,
I know you didn’t mean it
Your mind made you do this
Those cruel things you screamed
You are so black and white
So beautiful and insolent
The words you say often shatter my heart
Please, baby, just take me back to the start
Dear darling,
I was so enthralled with who you were
Your big, beautiful blue eyes
The way you held me all through the night
Always making sure I went to sleep with a full stomach
Your existence gave me chills
Your very being consuming my every thought
And while I didn’t know for sure,
I never cared why you had to take all those pills
From the moment I met you
I knew I wanted you for myself
What came with that?
I didn’t consider
I was blind to the fact that you were a splitter
Dear darling,
It was all going so well
I didn’t know you had this side of you
You hid it in a glass shell
But one day you showed me everything
It killed me but I knew I loved you
I had to understand
How could you say such horrible things to me?
This was never part of the plan
Dear darling,
I love you -
Nothing can change my mind
I know you are hurting
But no matter how many times this occurs
And you feel as if you’ve lost control
Please remind yourself that I am yours
I will never give up on you
For I know what you’re capable of
A love that your heart has never been shown
If you talk down to me, give me an aggressive tone
Please remind yourself of my love
I refuse to let you suffer alone
Dear darling,
I know you can’t control your thoughts
You hurt me
And I do not forget
But you will maintain this evil
For it does not define who you truly are
And I for one, do not see it as a threat
You will grow and you will learn
You will love me in kind
And together, we will figure out the other side of your mind
Dear darling,
Did you mean it?
I cannot promise I will stay
I know who you are, baby
But how much longer will you drive me away?
Sometimes it feels impossible
Please do not hate me if I have to let go
Do you ever worry about me?
You like it, don’t you, baby -
How I send my pain below?
Dear darling,
I am sorry I cannot stay
I have to protect my own heart
You understand, right?
You only ever pushed me away
But I will never forget how I taught you to love
It really did feel right, baby
But she was far too gentle for you to ever betray
Do you even know how often she questioned how much she should weigh?
Dear darling,
I deserve this release
I loved you more than myself
How terribly sad
So goodbye, forever
I can finally find my own fucking peace.
Dear darling,
I fucking hate that I still love you.
