Love Me, Read Me, F**k Me - Stay

I’ll put my hopes away for now Shove my feelings aside You feel lost in your mind I feel lost in my mind No one knows how much I’ve cried So I put my regular face on And you do the same Everyone knows you’re heads fucked up, baby The way you treat me Some would deem inhumane You might as well really hurt me Make me bleed It’s so bad Why don’t we just make it physical? After all, you can never give me what I need Do you ever feel shame? Scream in my face and watch as I stare Your sad fucking eyes slightly covered by your brown shaggy hair You tell me to explain But you’ve made me hallow inside I contradict my own mind It doesn’t fucking matter, right? I’m just so hypocritical But it’s obvious The stare towards my face but evident wander around your mind You feel so intensely But a part of you has died Your presence is sadness I suffer you in the silence I smell your need for pain Drown your suffering Put weights on your chest It’s evident you don’t want to be here No matter how much you explain Become a ghost Or maybe slice your flesh with a knife Let the weight of your existence run through your veins It will all end and it will feel so good A high impossible not to crave I question why you’re here I question if it’s me But that cannot be the case Or is it so? You will die with me clinging to hope I’ll never be the same But I’ll visit your grave Just remind yourself when you leave You left me with nothing An inability to cope How does one feel this much love while feeling so alone? I’m not fucking naive But I push my misery to the side Allow you to kiss my neck and fuck me until I feel Touch me gently Make me scream Loving you is a privilege Why does it feel like a bad dream? Will this ever end? The pain you cause The dehumanizing words Your behavior is a trend But when I lay beside you at the end of the night I can’t stop myself from starting a fight I long for you to care And to love me in kind It never happens But for some reason I let myself think about the past There is no way to rewind So I see you through Choosing you each day But I can never believe what you say is true No matter how much I beg Holding onto an invisible effort You are an impossible lover. Why am I here? You’re so fucked up. Why can’t you just love her?