time flies
and I feel like I’m missing out
they say someday you’ll regret when you don’t go out
so I try to convince myself to be social
but it’s all just lies
I feel like I need my own approval
my family set my bar high
everyone just expects i make no mistakes
but no one is seeing that my heart slowly breaks
I really wanted to try
but I don’t think I can any longer lie
i want to be myself but being brave is what it takes
always been the one my family shows off the most
but at the same time the one they complain about all the time
my whole life already got planned
doing crazy stuff to keep family and friends entertained
certainly getting called stupid for that
my own happiness is the cost
my family is broken but I need to be fixed
but that pressure is exactly what breaks me
my mom doesn’t want to see
keeps judging my looks, my activities,my friends hell, even my lack of “normal” male friends
i know my family loves me, i really do
but I know for a fact they won’t accept the one behind the mask
Behind all the jokes and the sarcasm
My parents think they know everything
they think it’s normal, to keep shaming
they get mad, when they see me sleeping through the day
They get mad, when i eat enough for a family they don’t see my cry for help
all they do is criticize and hate
they think I’m lazy
i know I’m I’ll
they think they know me
I know they don’t.
oversharing and regretting later is what I do
i just don’t get it, why are you doing this to you?!
people pleaser through and through.
