Face in the mirror
Out of focus, unclear
Counting every tear
Awakening devastating fear
No longer am I here
At the moment when I realize
Those are not my hazel eyes
Those are not my lips of lies
This must be a disguise
Feeling the tears as she cries
Barely knowing its my reflection
As reality loses connection
Blank stare, no expression
Brain receiving wrong information
Looking at her lose to her emotion
Legs on my body that aren't mine
Get her out of me and I'll be fine
Somewhere along my spine
There's a severed line
Body disconnects from my mind
Calling me by my name
Deep inside I feel shame
For I'm the one to blame
When my name I can't claim
Becoming a shell, a frame
On the surface of my skin
You touch me again and again
Yet to me this body I'm not in
It's as if you touched another woman
The one inside who will always win
She steals away my identity
Flies me to a land of insanity
Where rain pours infinitely
Using my body for her personality
Shutting me out of the intensity
Hearing my thoughts being said
In her voice foreign to my head
She speaks through my lips instead
Taking me over shred by shred
By her I am blindly led
My name is Samantha Dee
She is called simply BPD
These are the two parts that form me
We are pieces split unevenly
Fighting each other internally
The heart is my only possession
Beating through her idolization
Beating through her devaluation
Effortlessly she captures a new obsession
Yet my heart sings all through her rotation
Save me from the demon inside
Save me from the one never satisfied
Bad spirit coaxing me to go for a ride
Promising me a place to hide
All I have to do is commit suicide
I am eighteen chronologically
She is five years old emotionally
The demons he made me drink desperately
Tore open my soul savagely
His bad spirits entered me unconsensually
This is my face in the mirror
Her and I are split by a border that's unclear
Marked by a line that seems to disappear
She scares me just to feed on my fear
BPD and Samantha Dee shed a tear
Promising myself I'll always be here
Inside we suffer in our soul that cries
Elaborately hidden behind our disguise
Listen as I tell the truth behind these lies
Samantha Dee is alone behind my hazel eyes
I'm living in true insanity, this I now realize
