You know the problem I have,
Is that I never seem to know what I deserve,
I give all my love and all my attention,
Yet I never get anything back, just desertation.
I love with all my might and do what I can to make you happy,
But all I receive is short answers: okay, sure, nah I'm sleepy,
Why oh why do I even try to be with you,
And I know I deserve better, I know this is true.
Late night calls and texts, just to make sure you're doing all right,
But I hadn't seen the signs that the 'friendship' we had wasn't even tight.
When you needed me, I packed my bags and left at odd hours,
We'd talk about everything, and how the world will be ours,
But I wish I saw the signs, change in mood and behaviour,
I would have know by now that I am dealing with a betrayer.
Do as I say but not as I do, you didnt say it but I noticed your pattern,
Giving me advise, telling me what the right way is, yet our 'friendship' was a dying lantern.
It's like you do not see or think when you do something that hurts me,
You blame yourself, yet you seem to want to chop down the same tree.
The same tree that is my feelings and my love you,
I bore the hurt, the betrayal, the insults that sometimes I thought to be true,
True feelings that you felt for me, because one does not just say things they do not mean,
I feel stupid for believing in us, in you, even after all I had seen.
I feel like an idiot for even showing my love to you and believing that we could have something together,
And yet, I still have love for you, yet we are birds of a different feather.
You said you would help me, then change and say I can only help myself,
Don't drag me down to your lonely path, because I appreciate people unlike yourself.
I wanted you, I told you and you did not believe me,
I made sacrifices for us, yet yours seem to be more important than mine you see.
Because I considered you as a friend your words sounded more of a betrayal than just a talk,
Telling me it's a lonely path, I call bull, but don't worry I'll walk.
To keep you from 'distractions' I will leave,
Not to be seen again, don't worry I'll live.
You claim to love it, and I call it a claim,
You say you are the only one to blame,
Yet one is not willing to compromise a thing,
Begging for your attention, to you I cling.
You say it's a lonely path, then be alone,
I am done trying to be in your zone.
I loved you and I wish I stayed,
But I don't stay when I feel betrayed.
