I miss you,
Not what you would expect to hear,
But I miss the person I fell in love with.
Maybe it's me refusing to give you space,
Space to grow and thrive.
It's a good thing you ended it,
Gives us time to grow apart,
While trying to stay close.
I do not know where this will lead,
I do not think you do either,
But trust me, it's okay.
It's okay that you forgot to text me,
It's okay you no longer called,
It's okay that you got angry and called it off,
It had to end.
My complaining was becomig a tad much,
For you I assume because I thought I was getting things off my chest,
But I was poisoning you.
Slowly putting my negativity in your system,
Deteriorating your positivity, one glow at a time,
I am the poison and not you.
And I do not know how to fix this,
But to say no.
No you can't not have me again,
No we can't be close,
No don't start trying.
As much as I know I am poison,
I still love you,
And It had to end.
All the bickering I gave you,
Ignoring your efforts I guess,
I'm sorry I was too blinded by me to focus on you.
I have negativity in my life,
My toxic aura spreading among those I love,
Thank goodness you stopped it,
Or else we would be spiraling down to our demise.
I apologize for the complaining,
The diminutive comments,
The stubborness,
The inability to realize that you were trying.
But I thought you could do better,
So focused on an image I had of you,
Ignoring what I had now,
And how far it had come from.
Do not take it back,
Do not change your mind.
Trust me you'll thank me later.
I give you a year,
Your life will be better.
And I will be long gone from your mind,
You'll be wondering why you clenched so hard,
And all you had to do was let go.
Thank you for changing,
Because of it you can grow.
You may never know this,
I love you so dear,
But all your suffering,
It Had To End.
